it is not easy definitely to handle things that were not expected or to accept things at those moments we didn't thought it would happen.
hear some. feel some. I just wish I could turn back time.
but on the other hands, we ourselves don't know if the whole situation would be much better as what we expected or completely worst compared to now.
God knows what is best for his human being. everything is fated in the books.
nevertheless, you just can't help it to enjoy the feel we used to have.